They bundled me up, separated me from all my other friends and tied up a knot on me. I was suffocated. Hadn’t they ever heard of claustrophobia? I wanted to breathe, to smell the ‘exotic Indian air’, to cherish the gone moments, to smile through the troubles but they wouldn’t just leave me alone. The weather seemed to be pleasant, I could sway with it, could feel the wind on my face, but only if they would untie me.

One of them held me by my hands, the other grabbed my wavering legs, and my stomach ached with the knot getting tighter and tighter. Couldn’t they apprehend that I was losing my shape? What would become of me? I would lose my colour and my shape. I wouldn’t want to lose myself but they just don’t understand me. When will they?

They are just relishing their game of tug of war. How can they get pleasure out of this, by disquieting me? How? I just don’t want to be torn into two smithereens, misplacing my individuality.

 


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46 responses to “Tug of war”

  1. brijkaulblog Avatar

    tug of war is a game of hurting one’s feelings in the same way as breaking someones heart in love.

    read my blogs ,read my poem posted just a couple of days ago. your spirits will be high once you read it. leave a comment as i do.

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      Moushmi Radhanpara

      Thank you so much for stopping by.
      I will surely check your’s too.

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  2. my valiant soul Avatar
    my valiant soul

    Relateable and intense emotion!

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    1. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
      Moushmi Radhanpara

      Thank you so much for your comment but I am not glad that’s it relateable. No one should ever have to go through these tough times, but unfortunately I don’t have the say.

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  3. Alfaazon ki udaan Avatar

    Nicely explained….human emotions

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    1. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
      Moushmi Radhanpara

      Thank you so very much.

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  4. Jess Wen Avatar

    Your writing is so beautiful, this reminds me of the kind of limbo that I’m in – my parents having come from a foreign country to the UK, I’ve grown up in this ‘tug of war’ between my British environment and my Chinese heritage. This piece really brings this to life! Btw I’ve nominated you for the Blogger Recognition award, which you can check out here: http://bit.ly/recogDTJ

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    1. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
      Moushmi Radhanpara

      I know many of us can relate with these situations. It’s just too difficult to deal with all of them. And to battle a British and a chinese background must be too harsh. I hope all the luck to you to deal with them in future.
      I sure will check this out and thanks a lot for your nomination.

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      1. Jess Wen Avatar

        Yes, I think your writing has really resonated with a lot of people 🙂 being in a culture limbo is very strange, but I wouldn’t change it for the world haha it’s amazing being able to be part of two great cultures. Thank you for your kind words 🙂

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  5. houstonphotojourney Avatar

    Your words are so powerful!!! Love to read them!

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      Moushmi Radhanpara

      Its always a pleasure to have your heart warming comment on my posts.
      Have a wonderful day dear.

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      1. houstonphotojourney Avatar

        You too my friend 🙂

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      2. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
        Moushmi Radhanpara

        Lots of love 🙂

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  6. kalyansparks Avatar

    I understand completely this.but is it because of marriage or something which you are not prepared?????

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    1. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
      Moushmi Radhanpara

      Why?
      Couldn’t it be just a piece of cloth with whom people are playing tug of war?

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      1. kalyansparks Avatar

        Nooo..because if you write just that..it’s not a feeling..I thought that there is a undercurrent meaning in that..who Will find inspiration from just piece of cloth without linking heart to it???

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  7. supersirriousmom Avatar

    Wow this is absolutely beautiful and powerful!

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      Moushmi Radhanpara

      Thank you so very much. I am just glad you liked it.

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  8. Infinite Living Avatar

    So beautiful!

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      Moushmi Radhanpara

      Thanks a ton.

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  9. Mehul Singla Avatar

    Beautifully described human emotions.. Loved the post☺️👍

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    1. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
      Moushmi Radhanpara

      Thank you so much dear.
      I am glad you liked it.
      We as humans are full of emotions, aren’t we??

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      1. Mehul Singla Avatar

        Yup we are. Full of different kind of emotions.. That’s what we are made of…

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      2. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
        Moushmi Radhanpara

        But why?
        Couldn’t just they be absent!
        I know we wouldn’t be called humans then, but it’s just too harsh to deal with them sometimes.

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      3. Mehul Singla Avatar

        I wish they were absent… Emotions is the thing that takes away happiness from one’s life.. I too hate emotions..

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      4. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
        Moushmi Radhanpara

        Someone hates it too!!
        It’s like why have them when there’s no market for them. right?

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      5. Mehul Singla Avatar

        Yup, hate it… Seriously no one needs them so what are they doing here..

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      6. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
        Moushmi Radhanpara

        Answer that please.. 😀

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      7. Mehul Singla Avatar

        If I had the answer to this question then I would be the happiest person on earth😂

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      8. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
        Moushmi Radhanpara

        Hahahaha
        Me too. But sadly we both don’t have the answer.

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      9. Mehul Singla Avatar

        I think no one has the answer to this question.. And I don’t think anyone will ever have it too..

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      10. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
        Moushmi Radhanpara

        That’s why we are idiotic humans we just have silly questions but when it comes to answers we don’t have them,
        It’s like questioning why were you born?

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      11. Mehul Singla Avatar

        Hehe you really ask some relevant questions which no one thinks of. Yup we are humans who can only question but can’t find their answers..

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      12. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
        Moushmi Radhanpara

        Oh, I am all questions myself.
        My friends and family are tired of listening to all of the, may be wordpress to would be soon. 😀

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      13. Mehul Singla Avatar

        No, never. WordPress may get tired but I’ll not.. That’s what I like to do.. Listen to questions that are relevant☺️😀

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      14. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
        Moushmi Radhanpara

        Oh Really?
        Then next time Mr. Mehul, just try and answer one of them!!
        And luckily my next post is all question. I am waiting for you to answer them :-p

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      15. Mehul Singla Avatar

        I said I like to listen them, not to answer them😂😂 but I’ll try to answer your questions if I have them😜

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      16. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
        Moushmi Radhanpara

        Hahahaha
        Okay, let’s see.

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  10. voulaah Avatar

    Nicely explained
    Thank you so much dear friend
    Kisses

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    1. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar
      Moushmi Radhanpara

      Thanks a lot for the appreciation.
      I am so glad you liked it,
      Have a wonderful day.

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