I have fallen to this new stature
Cause, I have sat and done
Absolutely nothing despite being all alone.
I sat and stared
Stared at the dark wall,
Giving away ramifications of my past.
I sat; sat and stared at
I don’t know what,
Giving away only darkness.
I looked on at the wall
Thinking and rethinking
About I don’t even know what.
I have fallen to a new level
Cause I didn’t even realize
When the time ticked by
And it was no more the day,
I started thinking on.
I have fallen to this new level
Where I don’t even understand anything,
Where I have stopped feeling some things.
I sit and stare and think
Trying hard, very hard,
to only cry a very bit.
But I fathom,
I have fallen to a very new level
Where even crying seems to have
Gone away with a new fling
Drying my soul, not letting it brim.
I have fallen to this new depth this time
Cause I don’t even realize where I am.
Or how to climb up,
Or swim away.
Cause this time I don’t even reckon myself.
Cause this time, I don’t feel anything.
I sit and stare and think and the time keeps ticking
Trying to realize what I am even thinking,
But all I gather is I am at a new depth,
And now it is difficult to even keep climbing.
Difficult to even keep swimming.
I have fallen
And I keep falling,
I have drowned,
And I keep drowning.
I find a new level of
Nothingness,
Meaninglessness.
And I question myself
Where am I?
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Never been good with poems, never been a poet. This is just a vain attempt as always, and as all my previous attempts to try and write in as limited words as possible, and to express as far and as truthfully I can.
Moushmi Radhanpara 
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